Thursday, June 14, 2007
34
No, I'm not 34 but this pregnancy is, weeks that is.
It feels real now - this belly has a baby in it. A babe that likes to do backflips, somersaults, warrior-poses and handstands with frequency. I've got the weird symptoms happening now and that's okay. I'm just grateful that I haven't had to endure so many to-be-expected strange things throughout my pregnancy.
And so, I miss my ankles. I miss running - a lot. I dream about running - it's like a slow motion picture, with my hair billowing with each stride, getting glassy eyes from the wind and the flowing motion of slow albeait deliberate movement. I miss driving with awareness of what I'm doing. Who knew driving needed so much concentration to accomplish?! It may sound odd, but I find driving one of my most difficult tasks while pregnant. Sure, it doesn't help that each sitting position is just really awkward, but driving takes a lot of concentration and effort to do now. I miss sleeping on my stomach.
Okay, enough mushy-head-woe-is-me stuff.
I am fascinated by the versatility of my body throughout this process. I love the motion of this babe inside, cocooned and cozy although autonomous somehow. I like the way that strangers act shy or coy around me, like they have an in on my secret. They smile and nod and get dozy-eyed... become dreamers or something. I like the adventure of what is ahead of me. I like that I can eat ice cream and not feel icky afterwards (non-pregnant, ice cream is of no interest to me). I like that no one at work can be mad at me for taking a year off - they're all just too mushy about the whole thing to get worked up about it.
Yeah, it's all good.
It feels real now - this belly has a baby in it. A babe that likes to do backflips, somersaults, warrior-poses and handstands with frequency. I've got the weird symptoms happening now and that's okay. I'm just grateful that I haven't had to endure so many to-be-expected strange things throughout my pregnancy.
And so, I miss my ankles. I miss running - a lot. I dream about running - it's like a slow motion picture, with my hair billowing with each stride, getting glassy eyes from the wind and the flowing motion of slow albeait deliberate movement. I miss driving with awareness of what I'm doing. Who knew driving needed so much concentration to accomplish?! It may sound odd, but I find driving one of my most difficult tasks while pregnant. Sure, it doesn't help that each sitting position is just really awkward, but driving takes a lot of concentration and effort to do now. I miss sleeping on my stomach.
Okay, enough mushy-head-woe-is-me stuff.
I am fascinated by the versatility of my body throughout this process. I love the motion of this babe inside, cocooned and cozy although autonomous somehow. I like the way that strangers act shy or coy around me, like they have an in on my secret. They smile and nod and get dozy-eyed... become dreamers or something. I like the adventure of what is ahead of me. I like that I can eat ice cream and not feel icky afterwards (non-pregnant, ice cream is of no interest to me). I like that no one at work can be mad at me for taking a year off - they're all just too mushy about the whole thing to get worked up about it.
Yeah, it's all good.
# posted by tfoxfan @ 9:55 PM 
Comments:
<< Home
I'm so excited for you guys and I love hearing how facinating your finding it all to be. You really can't understand till you are there. love ya. ash
Funny that I was thinking in the van on the way home from Chilliwack today that I was really having to pay attention while driving! It just seems like other things are keeping my mind very busy. It must be a pregnancy thing!
I love to hear about how much you are enjoying the whole pregnancy process. I can relate to all the things you miss and I also realize that with only 5 days left in my pregnancy, believe it or not I am really going to miss feeling the baby move and other things as well. I too enjoyed the happy smiles from strangers while being pregnant unfortuantely those smiles have now turned to looks of sympathy! I love ya and can't wait to be Auntie Dee.
I love to hear about how much you are enjoying the whole pregnancy process. I can relate to all the things you miss and I also realize that with only 5 days left in my pregnancy, believe it or not I am really going to miss feeling the baby move and other things as well. I too enjoyed the happy smiles from strangers while being pregnant unfortuantely those smiles have now turned to looks of sympathy! I love ya and can't wait to be Auntie Dee.
I remember having to focus very much when driving too. It did seem distracting to have a huge belly between 'me' and the steering wheel. I was also remembering having 'phantom baby' after the bub was born, but I'm pretty sure it was my organs shifting back into place. Otherwise, I didn't miss being that huge, and I was happy to get my ankles back! You'll be back walking at a brisk pace in no time, and running will follow soon after (just get a good bra!) I'm excited for you guys! Soph
# posted by 
: 8:19 AM
: 8:19 AM
Ash,
Thanks for checking in. I think of you Burns gals often, knowing I've got a good circle of resources there if I need it!
Give G & J a belly-mush from us.
Thanks for checking in. I think of you Burns gals often, knowing I've got a good circle of resources there if I need it!
Give G & J a belly-mush from us.
SistaD,
I can relate already that it'll be a strange feeling to be without the belly and the movements that go with it.
I'm starting to take transit to work on days that I'm in the office to alleviate the driving distraction. That helps.
I can relate already that it'll be a strange feeling to be without the belly and the movements that go with it.
I'm starting to take transit to work on days that I'm in the office to alleviate the driving distraction. That helps.
Sophie,
Thanks for sharing your driving frustrations. I'm glad it's not just me dealing with this awkwardness. I've had to turn off music entirely to get a good handle on the task of driving.
I long for some normalness in my body. That said I'm also sort of excited about the new shape my body might take on. Maybe I'll get a bit more curvy ;). Are you running yet?
Thanks for sharing your driving frustrations. I'm glad it's not just me dealing with this awkwardness. I've had to turn off music entirely to get a good handle on the task of driving.
I long for some normalness in my body. That said I'm also sort of excited about the new shape my body might take on. Maybe I'll get a bit more curvy ;). Are you running yet?
Oooh, I can just picture you jogging in slo-mo as Jaclyn Smith a la 70's Charlie's Angels. Imagine, no bladder pressure with each stride, no shooting pelvic pain! Something to look forward to...
Tan,
I never really grooved with the millenium-Angels. Thanks for putting me in the Jaclyn Smith space - she had really good hair. And yes, it was the mid-70s to 81' - when life was 'all-right'.
I never really grooved with the millenium-Angels. Thanks for putting me in the Jaclyn Smith space - she had really good hair. And yes, it was the mid-70s to 81' - when life was 'all-right'.
Only running short intervals, but I went to my first karate class tonight!! It was great; I had been a bit apprehensive, but for no good reason. The thing about running/walking, is that my feet have changed, and so my footwear has had to follow. See how that goes for you - maybe it doesn't happen to all women... I'm excited for you guys! It's soon now. Soph
Post a Comment
# posted by : 6:34 PM
: 6:34 PM << Home
